and he laid down
his life
until it was
covered
with earth
and he planted
me deep
in the tender
flesh
of his heart
and as he rose
from the ashes
I burst forth
from the
soil
and bloomed
like a lily
fragrant
and full of
new life
I am a seed
planted deep
in your heart
I am
rooted
in love
for the heart
of God
is only love
let my roots
swell with your
waters of life
let me draw
strength
and security
let your nourishment
heal my limbs
and cause me to bloom
let the source
of my strength
be your love
let my roots
go deep
and hold firm
let me drink
your living waters
and flourish
let me live again
This is a modern psalm about seeking the presence of God.
I wake up in the night
empty in my soul
looking for you
but I cannot feel
your presence
"don't go by your feelings"
they say
but I want to sense you
I want to perceive
your indwelling
what are feelings
if not messengers
from within
pointing out what
truly matters?
I long to touch you
to reach out
and grasp your hand
if an invisible God
cannot be seen
or felt
how do I know
you are there?
my soul cries out
for the living God
impress yourself
upon my heart
emboss me with
your design
speak to me
in the way
I understand
if I cannot see
your face
then let me feel
your heartbeat
and let me sense
your presence
let me know
that you have not
abandoned me
let all your promises
come true
sometimes sadness
rises through the walls
of my chest
I thought I had
packed her
safely away
for another day
but she unfolds
herself and she
gets her way
flooding memories
of all that was lost
streaming images
of bridges crossed
I see sadness
running like rivers
through mountains
sadness rushing
like wild horses
through valleys
sadness flowing
over rocks
and glass
sadness seeping
through mud
and sand
sadness dripping
through rain
and pain
sadness slipping
through cracks
and splinters
sadness melting
like a thousand
winters
the ceaseless movement
through the walls
of my chest
cannot be folded
and packed away
cannot be ignored
another day
her music has a name
this mournful melody
wants to be acknowledged
so she can be set free
so I listen to her song
and I call it by name
Melancholy, I say
and I watch her transform
she's a thing with feathers
rising from the ash
and she gently flies away
it's a new day
there is a treasure
buried deep
in the heart
you must burrow
into the abyss
until you see
a light
or hear
a voice
or become wrapped
in a gauze
of answers
********************
when you hear
a word resonating
in the recesses
of your soul
the treasure is near
********************
you have been
given power
to receive
this treasure
so go now
retrieve it
now is the time
This is a story about a spring wedding, yes. But it’s also a story about life.
This month, my son and his wife are celebrating their two year wedding anniversary. They were married in March of 2021, on the spring equinox, a time of new beginnings, a time of new life. It was also right in the middle of one of the world’s worst pandemics, spawning, among other things, unprecedented global economic shutdowns and lockdowns. Businesses, schools, sporting events, large gatherings, graduations, funerals, and weddings were all affected.
Life is like that sometimes.
During their 2020 engagement period, our young couple was busy planning their dream wedding. Surely the COVID-19 restrictions would be lifted within a year, they thought. So they booked a venue.
The wedding would take place in the spring, near the home of the bride’s family, in New Orleans, Louisiana. The bride and groom would be surrounded by a huge group of their extended families and friends. It was to be hosted among the unique blend of music, flavor, and culture of world-renowned New Orleans. There would be a large bridal party and tons of events leading up to the big day. It was all richly romantic. Perfectly poetic.
But as the year 2020 counted down, the spread of COVID-19 ramped up, and the New Year 2021 began with more restrictions. The wedding venue could not accommodate the large guest list. Hard choices had to be made. The wedding was postponed. They were now looking into booking a winter wedding in December 2021.
Life is like that sometimes.
Dreams are derailed by forces beyond our control. Disappointments abound. Plan A fails. Plan B begins to crumble, and life itself becomes smaller, more isolated, less certain.
The dream wedding continued to unravel, and in the end, it boiled down to a party of 10 people: bride and groom, parents and grandparents, and sister of the bride, plus a violinist.
The wedding took place on the spring equinox of 2021 in a small garden at the Dallas Arboretum. The flowers were in bloom, and the bride floated down stone steps like a princess in a sparkling white gown, steadied by her father’s strong arm. The soft strains of the violin lifted all of us into a place above the brokenness of the world, a place infused with love and beauty, light and new life. Richly romantic. Perfectly poetic.
Life is like that sometimes.
And now as they celebrate two years of marriage, I can see how equipped they are to face life’s many challenges. The pandemic has officially ended, but the world is still not “normal.” There are lingering effects. Yet there is much to be celebrated. Sometimes small is beautiful. Sometimes love looks like sacrifice. Sometimes there is something bigger and more important waiting around the corner.
Life is like that sometimes.
Happy Anniversary, RJ and Natalie! May you have many more wonderful years together. And may your love always rise above your earthly circumstances, as you journey together through life.
My son got married
this weekend
to the most beautiful
girl in the world,
a princess actually,
who stopped onlookers
in their tracks
as they witnessed flowers
bursting into bloom
when she walked by.
Heaven itself beamed
blessings and grace
as my son's heart joined hers,
fingers intertwined,
lips breathing life into vows
that reached the ears
of the angels.
Music danced to the beat
of their hearts,
and the promise
of forever
was sealed with a kiss.
My son got married
this weekend
and I got the most beautiful
daughter in the world,
and my heart is still bursting.
the ground is soft and warm
time keeps marching on
nature awaits
a burst of life
but all I see is mud
a seed lies underground
buried in darkness deep
its heart cracks open
releasing new life
but all I see is mud